I don’t know why I seem to be amazed by my own humanity. It’s only day four and I’m already behind in my reading and writing. Experiment fail, or experiment confirmation?

Search Party
Sometimes I fear that I’ve gotten to this place where I think I deserve God’s blessing. It’s like I just assume that I’m righteous, and everyone out there is wicked, so God will pour His blessing on me and smite them. How arrogant.

The psalmist often asks God to search him to see if he is deserving of his situation. He acknowledges that there may have been something he has done to get in this mess. It’s very rare when I ask God to search me, that He would reveal to me what is the true state of my heart. I fear that I am only sharpening His sword.

Pomp and Circumstance
Perhaps if we had a better understanding of the state of our heart, we would have a better understanding of God’s righteousness and why He does what He does. We know that He is the ultimate Judge, and that all nations will be judged by Him. If we are repentant and keeping our heart in check, we shouldn’t be afraid or worried about the rest of the world. There will always be trouble, there will always be wickedness, there will always be ones who say, “There is no God.”

We know that God is just and hears the cry of the humble and oppressed. If we (read: I) really believed that, maybe we (read: I) would be quicker to praise Him rather than blame Him for things not turning out how we (read: I) want.

I will give thanks to the Lord with all my heart; I will tell of all Your wonders. I will be glad and exult in You; I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High.